I genuinely feel like whenever we are out in public I just embarrass my family

Going back to uni tomorrow.
As much as I wanna see people,
and as much as I dislike this town,
I really don’t wanna leave home again.
Boo.

I dreamt of you last night.
For some reason, your family wanted
us to spend time together.
And so we did.
On a pedalo.
And all of a sudden, we realised that nothing had changed and we were the same as a year ago and we loved each other.

I woke up happy.

Me and Rosiesaysrelax are having a nice sleepover just like the good ol’ days when we were kids. Love it!

Spent the day having a barbecue with the family for the anniversary of Dad’s death.
Was absolutely lovely (:
Can’t wait to live closer to them!

Happy Fathers Day. 
“We still miss you, we still love you.” 

I’ve started to make a scrapbook out of old pictures and stuff from my memory box. So many ridiculously nostalgic moments already!

I miss the purple jumper
You always used to wear
I miss your suits
Your pointy boots
And the way you’d style your hair.

I miss your sense of humor
And the way you loved to joke
I miss your ties
Your Sonvico-eyes
And the quiet way you spoke.

I miss the way you’d sing to me
When I couldn’t sleep at night
You’d dry my tears
Dispel my fears
And make everything alright.

I don’t know how long I have
To say all I long to say.
I remember our childhood,
All the games we used to play.
The way I felt so secure,
Sure things would never change.
Though time would move on around us,
We would never age.

Then, as we grew older,
I felt so left behind.
Were you inconsiderate?
Was I sometimes unkind?
For years I tried to catch you up,
While you strived to stay ahead.
Wounded, I aimed to hurt you
With the words I said.

Sometimes it takes a tragedy
To unite those left behind.
Both our childhoods died that day,
Although we remained alive.
Since then we’ve grown closer,
Maybe because I grew up so fast.
Whatever the reason, it’s nice to say
That we’re friends, of sorts, at last.

I used to sit and wonder if
We’d get on when we’re no longer teens.
Now adulthood’s looming closer,
I can imagine the scene.
Sitting around a table,
drinking glasses of red wine.
Laughing about past times,
While your children fight with mine.

Tomorrow I am heading off to London for a few days, to visit my brother.
I have to say, I am mega excited to get out of Pembrokeshire for a while as 1) It is amazingly shit and 2) I am amazingly bored of being here.
I am definitely hoping to squeeze in a cheeky bit of shopping!
And it’ll be nice to see my brother again, obviously.

I’m also going to see my uni for next september, which is exciting!
So I’ll update anyone reading on any exciting London shenanigans and hopefully shall come back in a much much better mood =)